19.12.08
Hey dearest,
You know what?
In my whole life, I've never been hurt as much as thrice by the same person
We used to love each other
But then ended tragically for my fault
I proposed for a second try, but I was rejected
For months up to year I was drowned in an utter sorrow
You came approach and then you dump
Damn, you think and act like an alien
Vicious and heartless
What is actually swimming in your mind?
And now you hate me while IT'S ME who should bear the hatred
You came to me when you were wretched
I kept on giving you consolation, and hoping to be a solace
For moments I thought that things were getting better
No more hatred would be born since we started caring each other, what an opportunity
And then you left (again), this time without any notification
TELL ME if I did mistake! was it a hard thing to do for you?
You broke my heart, over and over again, severely
And I wonder what makes you easily and so often break it
Do you think that mine is that strong?
I know,
I didn't deserve to be your lover
And I didn't deserve to ask for an opportunity
But it's just hurting to know that I don't deserve your affection either even only as a friend
It looks as if I could only deserve your hatred, and that's all I could only derive for my devoted affection
Was it something evil lying within me? that you sensed and feared from afar?
If the uttermost love could be born, then why such hatred couldn't..
15.12.08
that she has just realized if her love will always remain the same with a man whose heart has just gone for the second time,
that she has kept uselessly convincing herself a deceitful suggestion if her love to him has subsided
while
it always stays the same
but no pain arises this time
since the girl is completely powerless
that she can't do anything to fix the circumstance that has never been precise from the beginning of the sorrow
feelings that come and go
she guesses that sweet reminiscences can be the only consolation
though,
I wish you a very delightful moment in your lifetime, girl
where you would be astonished as if you were experiencing Aurora Borealis and feel contentment
yes indeed, love is as hard as chasing rainbow
but as long as the rain still falls and the sun still shines, the rainbow will always be there for one, two, and more opportunities
a chance to pursue your personal happiness
and keep it linger along with your destiny
for the rest of your life..
14.12.08
when the sun persist on a rainy day
butterflies let the grey astray
races against the dragonfly beyond the rainbow
stars,
up above the world so far
when the waltzing moon sheds its light
over the heavens of the universe
stars reveal the melodies of their winks
and butterflies plays with their wings
imagination of whatever wildly seeps through one's mind
how they thrill each other and bewitch people with their such affinity
ain't it a conspicuously awkward scene?
stars and butterflies
a pair of wonders that fascinates the night
and no pounding beat is needed to keep them dancing
::inspired by Dario Marianelli's masterpiece Stars and Butterflies::
Stars And Butterflies - Dario Marianelli
29.11.08
we nearly perceived it as love
we almost believed it was love
but my mind and body fail me now
and my shining armor rusted
why you keep insisting?
I've found no happiness nor even a comfort
I can't even freely breathe and express
oh.. this is a torment
that I can't bear it any longer
please
release me..
1.5.08
the light goes out
heartbeats are aloud
breathe in breathe out
kisses never ends
satisfaction lands
each lover bends
traces of fingers
excitement tingles
sensation lingers
forever is tonight
precious is tonight
young is tonight
9.4.08
when the sunlight is striking
and the waterbirds are splashing
the troubles were spreading
and gone with the lightning
the world's heart is aching
the nature starts faking
our skin shed we're bleeding
the sorrow keeps singing
the dark night's now dawning
descent traces moaning
crashing joy's been hiding
all happiness is lurking
murmuring sighing
singing rivers flowing
drift away the leaves tumbling
the deity incarnate ascending
all the blue turns to grey
nothing more left to say
nor magical thing astray
remain stoned day by day
21.3.08
It's hard to find out a thousand words
But every time I see your face around
A wish will creep in, I let it drown
I dreamed of tasting heaven in your charms
I wished I could be cuddled in your arms
Upon the grass we watched the same bright star
Though night ain't up to par
Feeling you in endless tiring days
The hazy maze of lane, I face the grays
You are piece of bless that found my secret thoughts
While I've been sailing with my dreamboat
I draw the night to serve you the morning light
I rent a pair of wings to see the height
A joyful land and blissful world with you
... are built inside my mind
