From Love to Hatred

Hey dearest,

You know what?
In my whole life, I've never been hurt as much as thrice by the same person

We used to love each other
But then ended tragically for my fault
I proposed for a second try, but I was rejected
For months up to year I was drowned in an utter sorrow

You came approach and then you dump
Damn, you think and act like an alien
Vicious and heartless

What is actually swimming in your mind?
And now you hate me while IT'S ME who should bear the hatred

You came to me when you were wretched
I kept on giving you consolation, and hoping to be a solace
For moments I thought that things were getting better
No more hatred would be born since we started caring each other, what an opportunity

And then you left (again), this time without any notification
TELL ME if I did mistake! was it a hard thing to do for you?
You broke my heart, over and over again, severely
And I wonder what makes you easily and so often break it
Do you think that mine is that strong?

I know,
I didn't deserve to be your lover
And I didn't deserve to ask for an opportunity

But it's just hurting to know that I don't deserve your affection either even only as a friend
It looks as if I could only deserve your hatred, and that's all I could only derive for my devoted affection

Was it something evil lying within me? that you sensed and feared from afar?

If the uttermost love could be born, then why such hatred couldn't..